[ He says it a little hurriedly, but he didn't come here to vent about his problems. He's here to say whatever he can before he can't see Lucifer any longer. They didn't talk much, and he was never sure what to make of the guy.
But in the end, Lucifer really did look out for them -- at least when it came to Yor. Tenn was prepared to chew out whoever murdered her, but now, he gets it. He understands. And this entire trial, the betrayal and what came afterwards gave him some peace. It's why he's able to stand here and look at Lucifer calmly, though he ends up deciding to sit on the ground cross-legged as he looks at him. ]
[ ... him? He greets the question with quirked brows and a face full of uncertainty. This is a question he's rarely been asked. Consequently, it's not one he knows how to answer. Particularly not in this situation.
He expected anger and outrage. Grief, bitterness. All of which would have been justified. This quiet, measured response is... well, peculiar. Some part of him is heartened by it, however. A mortal's capacity for forgiveness (or whatever this is) is truly a wonder. ]
I don't know. [ And truthfully, he doesn't. He could fake it, would have faked it in any other situation. But today has left him out of sorts. ] I'm surprised you came to see me. Did you have any lingering questions?
[ It's a lot of forgiveness, yeah, and understanding. He still feels all mixed up about Yor being gone, but she was a liar, and extremely unpredictable at times. Even while she was alive, the latter was something Tenn knew about her, but he chose to turn a blind eye to it. He chose to ignore that she was dangerous, that she was capable of killing. His defense about her being a "good parent" feels so foolish now, in hindsight, but that was back when he didn't know how to handle trials. Now, he wants to believe he knows better.
Maybe he can learn a thing or two from Lucifer, while he's here. Someone much, much older and wiser with more life experience may know better than him when it comes to navigating these situations. ]
Maybe a few, but they're not about what happened to Yor or Wuxian.
[ He looks sad, when he meets Lucifer's eyes. ]
I know it may be surprising to see me here, since I was so close with her. But...knowing the truth behind Ichimaru-san's murder changed things. I don't blame you for what happened there. I don't resent you, either.
I may not like it, and I don't think Yor or Wuxian deserved to die -- but neither do you.
[ Ah. This time, the sensation working its way through his chest is newer. He felt it all over yesterday, particularly through the trial, so he recognizes it as easily the discomfort. And just like before he has no idea how to process the feeling. After all, shame is something he's never had to cope with quite this intimately. Though he's done much for the skies, including committing acts that some would find horrifying, he never had to look in the eyes of the people he'd wronged.
... Ah. No, he supposes he did once, didn't he? But shame was only a small fraction of what he felt at the time.
Still, he chooses not to look away. Not this time. ]
I never imagined anyone would feel that way, much less express it. [ His expression softens here. He may not know how to come to grips with his shame, but he does know that he's honored to hear Tenn's words. ] Mortals truly are wonderful. Your capacity for understanding, for forgiveness, and for love...
They're not something most primal beasts are capable of.
[ Tenn can't help but give him a small smile, at that. He isn't happy that this was the solution Lucifer chose, but again, he gets it, and, well. There are worse ways that Lucifer could have killed Yor and Wuxian (but let's not talk about Riku's case). He doesn't have to like what Lucifer did in order to give him a proper, kind sendoff, and the expression on Lucifer's face makes it worth it.
He's glad that Lucifer can leave this horrible game knowing that at least one person isn't furious with him. ]
We're strange, in that sense. Complicated and layered. I'm sure this game would be far simpler if we were more like those primal beasts you're talking about.
[ He shakes his head, though. ]
I can't say that everyone will feel the same way that I do about this, though. Even so, it would be nice to get to know the Lucifer I was so curious about before you leave.
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[ He says it a little hurriedly, but he didn't come here to vent about his problems. He's here to say whatever he can before he can't see Lucifer any longer. They didn't talk much, and he was never sure what to make of the guy.
But in the end, Lucifer really did look out for them -- at least when it came to Yor. Tenn was prepared to chew out whoever murdered her, but now, he gets it. He understands. And this entire trial, the betrayal and what came afterwards gave him some peace. It's why he's able to stand here and look at Lucifer calmly, though he ends up deciding to sit on the ground cross-legged as he looks at him. ]
How are you?
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He expected anger and outrage. Grief, bitterness. All of which would have been justified. This quiet, measured response is... well, peculiar. Some part of him is heartened by it, however. A mortal's capacity for forgiveness (or whatever this is) is truly a wonder. ]
I don't know. [ And truthfully, he doesn't. He could fake it, would have faked it in any other situation. But today has left him out of sorts. ] I'm surprised you came to see me. Did you have any lingering questions?
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Maybe he can learn a thing or two from Lucifer, while he's here. Someone much, much older and wiser with more life experience may know better than him when it comes to navigating these situations. ]
Maybe a few, but they're not about what happened to Yor or Wuxian.
[ He looks sad, when he meets Lucifer's eyes. ]
I know it may be surprising to see me here, since I was so close with her. But...knowing the truth behind Ichimaru-san's murder changed things. I don't blame you for what happened there. I don't resent you, either.
I may not like it, and I don't think Yor or Wuxian deserved to die -- but neither do you.
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... Ah. No, he supposes he did once, didn't he? But shame was only a small fraction of what he felt at the time.
Still, he chooses not to look away. Not this time. ]
I never imagined anyone would feel that way, much less express it. [ His expression softens here. He may not know how to come to grips with his shame, but he does know that he's honored to hear Tenn's words. ] Mortals truly are wonderful. Your capacity for understanding, for forgiveness, and for love...
They're not something most primal beasts are capable of.
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He's glad that Lucifer can leave this horrible game knowing that at least one person isn't furious with him. ]
We're strange, in that sense. Complicated and layered. I'm sure this game would be far simpler if we were more like those primal beasts you're talking about.
[ He shakes his head, though. ]
I can't say that everyone will feel the same way that I do about this, though. Even so, it would be nice to get to know the Lucifer I was so curious about before you leave.